Sometimes…err… most of the times I write in a conscious- subconscious mode (I don’t know if that makes sense). That is, I sit in front of the computer, type anything I can think of, anything, and then just let it flow (I have this fantasy that I’m Doogie Howser M.D. making entries in my computer log) and sometimes some sense come out and sometimes nothing comes out but words and words. I don’t think of any topic to write, although sometimes I do write for a specific purpose and theme. Okay to cut the story short, this process sometimes brings out my conscious-subconscious negative thoughts.
Unfortunately I can’t help it and that is specifically became the purpose of this blog—to air those energies. I know some posts here are offensive and some are just plain non-sense while some are good (according to my brother).
Our resident pastor reads this blog and when I found out that he does, I told him to be…err…not to pay attention to some posts about worship, church and theology. I mean…he’ll think very differently of me. Of course I dare not ask our senior pastor if he was reading this blog because I don’t want him to read this blog because if he do read this blog and found out some posts are about his preaching and his Sunday school lessons (every first Sunday of the month he teaches in the men’s Sunday school)…If he found out that I’m being irreverent… I’m dead. I mean not literally dead, just dead as in dead…hmmm…like…he’s not only our senior pastor; he’s also my uncle. (I meant that in a nice way, of course.)