What have I done?

What have I done this year?


No servant can serve two masters. But that’s what I have been doing this past year—serving two masters. I have become so involved with my school work that I haven’t had time to do my church work. I have neglected my spiritual life.

I remember my prayer when I came back to the church: “Lord let me finish my education so that I can serve you”. This is my prayer; this is what our pastor prayed for. It seems that I have forgotten this prayer and for what?

All I have done was for selfish reasons. I have forgotten the joy of serving the Lord. All I got from my learning and reading is a negative attitude towards religion—a pretense for profundity. I have forgotten that the measure of a Christian is Christ the rest is insignificant.

What have I done this year?

I have replaced prayer with “theological” contemplation. I have replaced Bible reading with pretentious literature. I saw God but not the way God should be seen—the personal savior.

What I have done this year?

I have criticized a lot of people but I haven’t the guts to criticize myself.


What have I accomplished this year?

I abstained from church meetings and I began to realize there are so much works to do and so little cooperation given and none from me.

What have I done this year?


Nothing. What have I done for the Lord?—nothing.


This is my prayer and I hope you pray them for me

Lord, help me be humble
Lord, help me be humble
Lord, help me be humble
For I fear that if I didn’t humble myself
You’ll humble me

Lord, help me be patient
Lord, help me be patient
Lord, help me be patient
For I fear that if I keep on losing my patience
I fear you losing Your patience on me

Lord, help me see my blessings
Lord, help me see my blessings
Lord, help me see my blessing
For I fear that if I keep on complaining
You’ll take them away from me

Lord, help me see good things about people
Lord, help me see good things about people
Lord, help me see good things about people
For I fear that if I keep on seeing negative things about people
You’ll take away my visions

Lord, heal my afflictions
Lord, heal my afflictions
Lord, heal my afflictions
Let it not hinder service to you

And most of all Lord heal my spiritual afflictions
So that I can be empowered to serve you better.
Amen


I’ll be off to Baguio for our Christmas reunion. Pray that the rest will give me more time to reflect on my long list of shortcomings to the Lord and to the church and how to make up for it.

I have so many things to apologize for.

Please continue to pray for me and my family.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year